YOGA mode

Who said I was lazy?

I have a Yoga Mat, a Medicine Ball, a Volleyball, An Analog Treadmill (if that is how it is called), a Dumbell, a jumping rope, a bunch of Exercise DVDs, and saved exercises bothon my laptop and my Youtube account. Oh wait nobody said I was actually using them, right?

I have promised myself eery now and again that I will focus and just do it. I said I will do hiphop abs, belly dancing, bikini body work out, Insanity, jumping rope anything and ake sure I have daily exercise. I tried but after I'm sore I just stop and back to zero again.

It was a real blessing when somebody at facebook sent me a message saying I won YOGA giftcard. Well, well, well, the stars have aligned and grant my wish. An extreme change. I will commit to this week long free 7 sessions. It actually costs 500 sessions. Who would let that pass? I would normally let it pass because I live 2 hours and 108 pesos away. But I said I just have to do it. I have to.

I attended my first session and I had no idea it was hotflow, with minimal supervision. I realized how unfit I was. I was sweating and panting like a pig. I cannot align my limbs correctly even the simple stretches are killing me. I died many times. I died like a greasy pretzel. I couldn'tdistort myself. I was so stiff.
I had to stop so many times. I was not embarassed at all but, I used to be so fit that I could exercise continously for 2 hours. I can lift 10 kilos and more of weights while hauling stuff I was selling before. I used to briskwalk 30mins to some elevated places and I used to run up stairs and do so much more.

I felt so bad.
I realized why I am depressed (sometimes I am) I have not been using my body as much as I dd before. I felt bad knowing that I have let it all go and watsed its potential.

I shouldn't do this just to lose weight, to feel sexy or to feel pretty I should do this to feel good about myself. That is the best reason. That is priceless. I owe it to myself.

I may have commitment issues with othersbut I have no excuse not to commit to myself.

Though, I should start with that sleeping thing too.